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Hi folks!

It’s been awhile, I know. I’ve decided to begin writing again. However, I want a fresh start, so the title of this blog will most likely change and the previous posts will most likely go away. I’ve missed the creative outlet. Once I remove all the previous posts, this blog will link to my twitter (funny how I once questioned what twitter was!). I’m excited to share my thoughts with you all again!

 

Courtney

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i hate excuses. doesn’t everyone? i feel like the man i have been quasi-dating is full of them. every week he’s sick or having a “crazy” busy week at work or injured or forgetful or WHATEVER. i am now at the point where i don’t care what the reason is that he is unavailable. i am not waiting for him to be unavailable, now matter how much i enjoy spending time with him when we are together. the back and forth, half in half out approach isn’t cutting it for me. i really don’t begrudge him – he is a good guy and i do think he’s trying. but it isn’t working for me. i guess it’s a case of bad timing or him not being ready or whatever. i don’t really care what it is. i just know i’m not into it.

back to the drawing board, i guess. sigh.

yikes. i have been supremely bad about writing this summer. i’m going to chalk that up to the summer being so busy and crazy and hot. yeah, it’s been about 200 degrees almost every day this summer. okay, i’m exaggerating just a wee bit. but it has been hot. i guess i should share a bit of what i’ve been up to during these hot summer days. here’s a quick list:

  1. spending a ridiculous amount of money on the dog. surgery, dental work, anesthesia — you name it, the dog has been through it. luckily, she seems to be pretty healthy now.
  2. drinking. a lot.
  3. swimming. obviously – it’s freakin’ hot here. what did you expect i’d do.
  4. going on dates with a man. a man i think i may really like. more about that later.
  5. spending time with the parents, my sister and bro-in-law and my babies (niece and nephew). so fun.
  6. taking said babies to six flags. on a 98 degree day. not as fun.
  7. did i already say drinking? because i’ve been drinking a lot.
  8. interviewing for jobs.
  9. working out, mainly because i’m unemployed and so there’s no excuse for me not to be hot.
  10. reading. a lot. again, i’m unemployed, so why not?

the summer has been good so far. it’s gone by quickly, just like every other season always does.

so…the man. i know everyone (and by everyone i mean the two or three folks who will read this) is curious. i’ve known him for a few years, but we never really hung out much until this year. i’m not exactly sure where it’s going or even where i want it to go. but right now, i really enjoy spending time with him. and for now, i think that’s enough. for one, i’m definitely out of my almost two year slump (y’all KNOW what i’m talking about) and that’s a big deal. definitely something i don’t take lightly (hence why we were approaching year two) and i think that MAYBE there could be something there.  this thing is different then what i’ve previously experienced though. in previous relationships (see: the ex, the loser, the banker) everything took off SUPER fast and it was almost like a whirlwind of coupley stuff. i met the banker’s mother after our fourth date (he tried to make me meet her after our second date. i refused). i met the loser’s parents after a month. the ex and i were saying “i love you” after a few short months. this time around, it’s not like that at all. and i have to think that this may be a good thing. after all, none of those previous dudes worked out. maybe this one will?

i promise i’ll be better about updating this! i’m a summer slacker, what can i say? 🙂

i just returned from an incredible weekend in charlottesville. i was there judging 1L oral arguments, but really, how could i turn down a legit opportunity to get drunk with good friends in my favorite college town? spend time in my favorite college town?

and what a weekend it was! once l and i escaped the horrific traffic of dc, we pulled into cville and decided we’d spend friday night ambling around on the downtown mall. we ended up at blue light grill and decided we’d just “have a drink or two.” ah. should’ve known right there we were screwed. such famous last words.

two hours later, we are having a ball with our new BFFs — a group of ’90/’91 uva football/basketball players. two of whom we up for heismans. one of whom is the new asst. football coach at uva. such fun. such nice guys. and, who can complain when a group of handsome 40 year old men want to buy your bar tab? not l & i, that’s for sure! oh good, good times. especially when l declared that she thought the nicest one of our new BFFs had a lot of this (picture her rubbing her hand in front of her face in a circle) going on. oh and did i mention our nicest new BFF lives in durham (home of my original, always and forever BFF)? fun times.

then on saturday night, we celebrated l’s hockey team winning the nat’l championship by going to an 80s dance party. gloriousness. i seriously love 80s nights so much. oh and we pretty much ate every single delicious thing in cville. well, that’s not true. but i definitely gained about 5 pounds in 2 days. le sigh.  oh and we capped off the weekend by getting hit on by some guy at a random warrenton, va gas station. this guy (his name is joshua, allegedly) promised me VIP status in clubs, happy hour discounts and…gym memberships? so weird. i swear, sometimes there is something written on my head that says “if you are a freak, talk to me!”

all in all, a totally successful weekend.

this really isn’t about a sunday kind of love, but i’m listening to etta james and figured she deserved some props. 🙂

anyway, i have this facebook friend request sitting on my homepage and i’m doing my best to ignore it. it’s from this guy who i may have spoken of before…he was basically my first love / big mistake (aren’t they all) and while i always knew he was bad for me, it took me awhile to completely untangle myself from him. the Ex and i got in many (huge) fights about this dude (let’s call him Bama). in fact, it got so ugly that the Ex threatened to break up with my if i didn’t stop being friends with Bama. of course, that didn’t work because ultimatums rarely do. anywho, suffice to say that Bama was bad news and i haven’t spoken with him in a long time. mainly because i am very nervous about getting caught up in his dramatic, over the top, irresponsible life again. it’s been difficult because i cared about Bama SO much. he is a beautiful person and i am curious about what’s going on in his life.

BUT i know myself. and i know that once we start talking again, it’s just a matter of time before i’m spiraling down into the depths of his inability to function. and i just can’t do that to myself. but then a part of me thinks maybe he’ll be better now? maybe he’s finally gotten himself together and is acting like the man i think he could be? oh, i’m so conflicted. i know he’s bad news. but…what if he’s now good news? what if he has changed? what if things are different?

for right now, i’m going with my gut on this one and leaving his request unanswered. but i’ll be honest…i can’t promise it will stay that way. what if (god forbid) i could find my “sunday kind of love” with someone i’ve cared about since i was too young to know what it meant??

so, last night i went on a date with a guy i met from match. it was fine, but no real sparks. this also is a little superficial, but he has bad teeth. i HATE bad teeth (seriously, ask my friends…i can’t handle it). the guy was nice enough, but spent a lot of time talking about how much he hated women/people who were bourgeois…then talked about he was disappointed when he met some woman and she was “just a teacher.” i was really not impressed.

then it turns out that he’s the little brother of a girl that i went to LS with. this girl was cool, we weren’t super close, but definitely friendly. he is VERY different from his sister. she’s cool and he’s…kind of not. i just really wasn’t feeling it. he’s a nice enough guy, i guess. except that he told me that an ex had told him that he was verbally abusive. GREAT! just the man i want. honestly, he seemed to have a huge chip on his shoulder. i do not think i’ll go out with him again.

but…it could have been worse. he could have been absolutely awful. i guess i’ll call this one a good way to get back into the dating scene? back to the drawing board…
yep. it is snowy as shit out there. it’s also windy – like, 40mph windy. yikes! although i’ve gotten out a fair amount during the blizzard of 2010 (gym, gro., cvs, dinner a few times), i am starting to go a wee bit stir crazy. mainly i’m thinking how much fun it would be to have a snowy booty call. of course, i am on a new thing where i only spend that kind of intimate time with dudes if i really like them. yes, i know. i read that steve harvey book and i have to admit, that steve made sense. so, no more messing around with cocoa k. cocoa k is a decent dude, but i don’t really have feelings for him, so why keep faking the funk?

with that being said, sometimes i really wish i could just call someone up to get snowed in with. i’m getting bored, damnit! have you read the weather forecast in dc?! sigh. sometimes being mature sucks.

i will say this, though…if i had some viable recycling options in dc, i’d be so freakin’ environmentally friendly right now, it ain’t even funny… 🙂


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